Personal Development

Reading for Recovery

During my first year of recovery, I buried my nose in whatever literature my sponsor handed me. It was pretty basic. The Big Book and a 12-step Workbook. I did my best to navigate the old-timey writing, outdated sentiments, and religious aspect. I’m thankful that I was able to look past the things that didn’t…

7 Different Relapse

What Relapse Tells Us

Why I relapsed used to be a mystery to me.I felt like I was on autopilot the whole walk home. I don’t remember any of the thoughts going through my head, just that I had this strong internal force that seemed to have completely taken over my body. I got in the door, kicked my…

Risks of Lowered Inhibitions

How Alcohol Lowers Inhibitions

Almost as soon as alcohol enters the blood stream it has been proven to lower one’s personal inhibitions. Yeah it will make a person feel more relaxed and outgoing but it also makes people do some really stupid things. The brain isn’t going to be making the best decisions when its being influenced by Jack…

Summer sober

Sober in the Summer

Prior to getting sober, I couldn’t imagine spending a Chicago summer without drugs and alcohol. Summer in Chicago is sweet solace after months of dodging ice falling from skyscrapers, wearing two layers of thermal leggings under your pants, and contemplating moving to the West Coast every other day. All of my summers here have revolved…

How to effectively manage cravings

How to Effectively Manage Cravings

A couple of years ago when the new DSM V came out, I was excited to learn that the drafters had included “cravings” as one of the 11 criteria.  Because the DSM IV-TR didn’t include cravings means they were clinically significant, right?  I have found that not to be the case.The DSM V refers to…

Between motherhood and addiction

Motherhood and Addiction

I sat on my bed trying to focus my eyes on the pregnancy stick I was holding but it was just not happening. I was still drunk from the night before. I extended my arm and was now seeing double. Yep, I was pregnant. My boyfriend was still asleep so I decided to walk to…

People In Recovery Can Change The World

People In Recovery Can Change The World

Why am I here? That’s a good question. I will never forget when a student asked me something quite similar a couple years ago. He posed the unexpected question “what is the meaning of life?” As silence rang out over the auditorium, I remember trying to assemble my thoughts and piece an answer together. Has…

How to deal with catastrophic thinking in sobriety

Catastrophic Thinking in Sobriety

I find myself considering disasters like impending deaths, freak accidents, and other catastrophes, and how those would affect my life and how I would cope. I never knew these thoughts had a name or a diagnosis. Don’t let the worst possible scenario consume you. Have you ever been sure that something devastatingly bad is going…

concept of a bottom

Does Rock Bottom Matter

Bottoms Up! In the world of substance use disorders is a concept of a “bottom” or “rock bottom.”  Even those outside of recovery programs recognize that to find a way out of the deep well of those that suffer from substance use disorders, there is a kind of desperation that must occur.  It’s the theory that…